Well, I’ve nearly made it through the second week of work after maternity leave, and I can officially say that life is starting to feel more normal now. I have my morning routine more clearly defined, my daily pumping routine is set, and our evening routine with Carter seems to be catching on as a routine for him as well. So, I feel that from here on out, things should be less hectic and more “normal”.
This morning when I dropped Carter off at daycare, the head teacher spent a little time talking with me as she usually does. I told her how it was so hard for me to leave Carter at the center yesterday when he was in such a fabulous mood – he smiled at me about 6 times as I was getting him dressed and out the door. Her response was something to the effect of “I know, I was holding him yesterday after he ate, and got a picture of him with my phone when he was smiling like he was about to laugh”. My heart totally sunk. Not only do I think it’s odd that she’s taking pictures of Carter with her personal phone, but it totally bummed me out that she gets to enjoy my son more than I do. It got me to thinking – does he laugh at daycare? Because I’ve never seen him laugh except for in his sleep. And as I leave my son with someone else to watch all day, every day, how many other “firsts” am I missing? It makes me wish I would have taken an additional 3 to 4 weeks of unpaid maternity leave so that I could enjoy his current development all to myself during the days. Selfish, I know, but I would have never guessed that he’d be changing so much within the seventh and eighth weeks. And I would have never guessed that it would bother me so much to miss these little milestones in his life. In any case, it’s getting harder to drop him off because he’s always smiling in the mornings, so it’s obvious that he’s pretty happy at daycare. I should probably just be happy knowing that he doesn’t hate it.
I stepped on the scale this morning to a surprising 130 pounds! That’s down from my 135 when I posted that I need to lose 7 pounds. I honestly couldn’t believe that I lost 5 pounds because I have been eating like a cow this week - grazing throughout each day. I will admit that I’ve been grazing on healthy food these days, so that might contribute to the loss, but I’ve still been consuming a LOT of calories. I guess it might be true what they say about breastfeeding helping to drop pounds. Too bad my pre-pregnancy jeans still don’t fit. It’s weird being at a weight where I know I was at one time able to fit perfectly in the jeans that are still sitting in my closet, yet now I can hardly button them. But amazingly, I don’t really care too much – besides knowing that I have a bunch of expensive jeans in the closet that I may never wear again. I’ve decided that our little boy is well worth the change in my figure (and the loss of my jean investment – ha!).
This weekend is probably going to be a busy one for us, and I’m kind of looking forward to the busyness. With the warm weather today and Matt having the day off for Arbor Day, he’s going to mow the fast growing lawn, spray for bugs, pull the landscaping fabric out of our mulched flower beds (nobody told me – until last year – that you only use it for rock), and put another layer of mulch down. This afternoon, Matt’s mom is coming into town, so we’re going to get together with her, Jamee, and Codi for some steaks on the grill and probably play some cornhole (got to practice up for the annual tournament!). Then tomorrow, my parents are coming up to see Carter for a little while. Mom and I are planning do a little shopping too. If Mom and Dad stick around long enough, I’ll probably get some landscape work done as well – yay (I’ve been itching to get out and dig in the dirt)!! Finally, on Sunday, we have Carter’s baptism and have planned to also have lunch with our family afterward. So, by Sunday afternoon, I think I’m going to be ready to just lie on the couch at home and watch a movie or something. Hopefully Matt and Carter will feel like doing the same thing.

